Wednesday, October 28, 2020

Barter

Starlight in her eyes,
Ghosts in mine.

Hope in her eyes,
Treasure hunt in mine.

Care in her eyes,
Madness in mine.

Poetry in her eyes,
Muse in mine.

Wings in her eyes,
Mine own the skies.

Fog in her eyes,
Rain in mine.

Thorns on her head,
Wounds on mine.

Now, come.
Let us 
Change sides.

Monachopsis

Tears on paper
Blot as ink.

Like a Samurai sword
Slashing a petal.

You're s
toic to 
Unspoken pains
Though unsaid words
Bleed each month
From your womb.

Tentacles of bastard memories
Entangle you; you
Wrest free each time
Only to be wounded anew.

Come, dance with me.
Leave your monachopsis behind.

You know you're afraid,
You know, you're not alone.

But am I as 
Scared
as you?

Are you as
Scarred
As me?

Tuesday, October 27, 2020

A prayer in the dark

When I say I love you
I don't mean I'll die for you.

I wish your prayers you let out,
In the dark
When no one's listening, 
Turn true.

I wish our kids turn out strong
And have enough courage
To take life by its horns.

I wish for the colors to return to
Your tomato cheeks.

I wish for you to make a dollhouse
Of chocolates
And peanut butter sandwiches.

I will not burn for you
But I'll return from hell, if I need to.

I'll be your warm blanket in the cold
And let you be that naïve child, once again.

For when I say I love you,
I'll live for you.

Would you?

I found Keats in a café,
Blakes in a bar, and
My scribbled poems in a dustbin.
You change and
Exchange
What you don't need
In this world.

Can you too hear
The voice of a dreamer,
Singing songs spun by bards
Across time and space?

Do you too feel 
That ravenous thirst
And hunger
For fiction and love
And some jazz in between?

Do you too feel my face
Like a mirror pressed on to 
Your tanned skin
Like I feel your sunlit hair?

By the way, would you rather 
Read this love poem
With your old classmates
Across your desk during
A boring board exam?

The good place

When the gutar-goo is replaced with the scream,
You know you're in a good place.

When you feel at home at a farmhouse, 
You know you're in a good place.

When a child brings you a small butterfly
Only to release it later, 
You know you're in a good place.

When you look into a black well
Only to see a million stars above,
You know you're in a good place.

When a temple with a fierce Kali calms you,
You know you're in a good place.

When home-baked French toast is served hot, 
You know you're in a good place.

When you worship the goddess during Dussehra, 
You know you're in a good place.

When you hold her hands and she calms down,
You know she's in a good place.

Thursday, October 22, 2020

9 nights

Electricity crackles,
Leaves rustle,
Flowers fall.

The crescent moon is awakened,
Drum beats announce Her raas.

She opens her eyes, walks the earth.
She breathes, each thought
Born and dead
With the air
On fire.

Bodies rise, bodies burn, 
When she dances with grace.
Poisons turn into amrut
As I crave for one last
dose.

What do I owe Her? 
Am just a collector
Of all creative debts.
Like scars of my past lives
Are my glittered blue veins now.

These 9 nights. 
The goddess in her dances
Inside my soul.

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

You found me

Our future is enough
For our past to fade.

Like two parallel railway tracks
Heading into the clouds,
Let us remember our purpose.

Like a snake in a river,
Snaking its way, 
Through treacherous terrain
Let us be alert of the heat.

I know I'll never find another you
Without even trying.
Like listening to a song and
Understanding it even
Without being depressed.

You're what I see through
My open windows
You're what God gifts through
My closed doors.

Like a deep river that evokes
freedom and fear at first,
You're the poetry that found me
In parts of me I didn't even know.

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

my seeds

mustard seeds popped about...
a kitchen floor
tells a story of 
what's cooking?

the essence of all that is,
ever was,
comes out
when it manifests
in the presence of a 
catalyst.

a poem is born
in the union of grammatical mistakes 
and poetic licenses.

seeds pop in my mind
when am cooking
thoughts peppered with feelings,
lost loves, and
willingly lost
petty mind games.

may i manifest as my poem,
with you, 
as my catalyst?


Monday, October 19, 2020

Quench

At the bottom of the marble stairs,
I trust you.

You'll protect me from the devil. 
I'll hide you from nightmares.

With each falling leaf,
What is it that you dream of?

My parched chest
Thirsty
To listen to your stories?
My myths?
Your forgotten wombs?
Cold stars?
My intimacy laced through your tattoos?
Handmade loves unlike artificial fairytales?

In this unadulterated love affair
Between poetry and me, 
Are you 
The metaphor?

We'll quench our souls 
With sacred tonic 
That pours from the clouds.

At the bottom of the marble stairs, once again, 
Trust me.

Colors of punishment

Take her hand. 
Stop the little girl,
Inside you,
Who you punish.

Like an old violin tune
Played out on a mandolin,
My skin emanates 
Your scent.

I skip over stones,
Bend below barbed wires.
I want to wear 
You
Everywhere.

Let us pluck love
As cobalt strawberries
From the skies,
As you bite my lips
Red.

In a world where 'I' no more exist,
My skin shall be
Your sky above.
Let my summer heart
Warm
Your winters.

No, you can't go back. 
We've turned the tides of time:
We've colored everything.

The Mist

The hunter rebels,

Her caring hands soothe...


The prey 

Stops its prayers,

Written as poems,

On paper wrinkled

Cashew and indigo ink.


Her fragrance floats

Across my pages

From second-hand bookstores.


She's a metaphor as deep 

As a child reading poems

With rose-tinted glasses.


A mystery that envelops 

An undead village surrounded by mist

In the dark.


I stare. 

Stand.

Watch. 


Her lone survivor.

Friday, October 16, 2020

Lucid

Someone would've hurt you
A trauma would've cursed you. 
Which is why that smile never leaves you.

Come to the land by the sea
Where no one knows you by your face
Where the cold breeze from the sea
Warms your cold skin
By the fire.

Let us hold hands without a plan.
If needed, rearrange the house and make it your 
Home. 
All housemates are mere guests
Only I will always stay.

Those few moments before you awaken 
From your sleep,
Let me in. 

Let us sink
Into God's lucid dream.

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Light of your own night

This burial ground,
We call our body
Where a thousand hearts
Die. 

Let us resurrect.

This mausoleum,
We think of as our mind
Where a thousand thoughts are born
And more dreams die.

Let us rise and erect.

Let us go.
Rather, arrive.
Shameless,
Into that bloodshed night.

Come, shine a bit
On your own
On moonless nights
Like the moon.

For in the light of 
Your own nights
I belong to you.

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

A new poem, anew

Come, let us 'time pass'.
Or, think of better ways to pass time
Than sitting at the silent shores, listening to stormy waves 
While trying to hold on to sand in our fists.

Come, let us make our doors into windows.
Come, keep both our dreams:
One below your pillow,
The other in my left eye.

This October rain and magic
That drips from my inked lips
You always thought mere poetry.

No, this is my revolution:
When the sun bleeds into the sea,
The moon blooms under your cloudy skin.
A razor-edged crown fits my heads.

We know we'll never give up;
It's difficult to wait
But worse to regret
Not waiting.

You flower,
I'll be the leaves that wither.
Together till the end, 
You'll either end up on me or an idol.

Our poetry may end
For our
Poem to be born.

Thursday, September 10, 2020

A new address

Sleepless nights, drowsy days.
People and cattle graze and meander, 
Ruminating on bygone yesterdays.

Some cities sell dreams, some melt like
Ice creams.
No city was ever made to hear your 
Screams.

Sunny balconies that hide tearful bedrooms.
Bathrooms where lustful uncles peep.

Busy schools and empty playgrounds.
Buses and trains and automobiles.
 
Potted plants and terraced gardens 
Personify farmlands that once were.
Half interested florists 
Mimic forests that once were.

Abandoned and reclaimed lakes froth in anger, 
Where monsoon brings acid rains.
Amidst all this horror, like a lotus in a dirty lake,
Love stories bloom.

In buses and trains, in theaters and cafes,
Among sweaty talcum-powdered underarms 
And carefully applied make ups and sunscreens 
Under umbrellas, corner bus stops, metro lights, and lamp posts
Waiting for a few sea breezes
Under the sultry sun and the scorching earth…

Love finds its way 
Like an old postman
Finds a new address
In an ever-bulging new city.

Inspired by all the dreams in between by Ananda

Friday, July 31, 2020

You, to me

Silent, serene serendipity 
Descended as a dawn.

A text from a farm miles away
Changed everything,
One fine day.

Tales of the past, 
Things that ended and stuff that last
Out every crevice, we cast.

We texted, we sighed,
Everything that we wished, we hide.

Coffee and café. Life and loves. 
Adventures and misadventures alike
We read aloud like bookmarks 
From our favorite chapters.

Between our crowded Jupiter to our Snubby, 
We’ve added more than a set of wheels.

Between your favorite music and my ghazals, 
We’ve made the wind dance between us.

A toast to this special day 
When your mom and dad 
Blessed this naked earth
With a dark goddess…

Come, let’s sip our wine like the sea inside.
Partake of our daily baked bread
That makes my Cinnamom’s heart 
Swell with pride.

I love how your chocolate cake and 
Cookies crumble in my mouth
While we complete this song of love
For you to smile and a 1000 fireflies to come alive.

Somewhere, my heart holding your flower vase cracks,
The petals float to rest between your crooked toenails.

These words do not alone a poem make
Your hands hold it like a kite 
Set against a yet unseen sky.

I hope this lukewarm poem 
May find you warm
And hide inside your soul.

Put this poem near your favorite succulents,
May they may grow better.
Let their thorny exoskeleton know
What only you and I can feel 
but no one else can touch.

Does this simple poem remind you of
Love letters from 
The sunflowers to the sea?
Wish I was the lighthouse 
And you the ship that carry those?

During these unforeseen types of lockdown, 
I want you to go peek
At the moon, look at the sky,
Play with the waves,
Heal your soul and
Unlock our love.

Now, am left 
Wondering 
Did this poem write itself?

And

How many poems about our love
Will you make me write?
Till you read 
And reply 
With a poem of your own? 😊

Monday, December 09, 2019

Ever-changing permanence

The holy hill is blanketed by a thick cloud throughout the day.

The foreigner, who seeks, is still seeking silently as he sits right next to the door from the mother's shrine to the samadhi hall.

The Japanese lady, Shunya, has aged gracefully. She still sits on her stool and sings the parayanam. 

The 'beautifullest woman in the world', who's name I know not, still sits behind the bronze statue of Bhagwan and spreads her grace to all who perform pradakshina around his samadhi.

The twin sisters have grayed a bit but their voice hasn't aged. 

The president of the ashram and his wife still occupy center stage though it takes the president longer time to reach his chair now.

Illayaraaja inconspicuously comes, graces the mother's shrine and the samadhi and partakes of his blessings and offerings.

Prasadji's zest for life and relationships still matters in this indifferent world.

Ramana is still here. For all those, who can feel him.

The parayanam goes on with sustained and renewed energy each day. 

Somethings change and somethings don't in this ever-changing permanent asramam, a microcosm of the world.

Monday, September 23, 2019

Bits and pieces

Poetic chaos we're,
Intoxicated from the somras 
Of love from a cup
Common to us
And us, alone.


I always question time
When am waiting for you.
I ask time 
Why can't we go back to the time we first met?
And relive, once again?


Our souls have no boundaries 
Unlike our bodies.
But, they too emulate the soul 
When they try to become one 
In sacred communion with each other.


What's rain you ask?
It's the sky crying out for you and me 
When it sees us under separate clouds!


My life was like a meter gauge with foliage running over it 
Till you came chugging along, 
Whistling away my worries, 
Trundling along my wounds, 
On-boarding all my dreams 
And dropping them off 
To their ideal destination.


My poems can sometimes be prayers,
Trying their best to let you know
That nothing you wear 
Is better than your smile.

Monday, August 26, 2019

A love letter

What is it that you seek, a love letter? A mere love letter doesn’t do justice to your love, my beloved.

It’s like the sun asking for a bit of moonlight.

Like the moonlight asking for city-lights.

Like the city-lights asking for a lamp.

Like the lamp asking for a wick.

Like the wick asking for a breeze.

Like the breeze asking for air. 

Like the air asking for breath.

Like the breath asking for its life.

Like life asking for love.

Like love asking for a heart.

Like the heart asking for music.

Like the music asking for a song.

Like the song asking for a tune.

Like the tune asking for rhythm.

Like the rhythm asking for a pattern.

Like the pattern asking for a shape.

Like the shape asking for form. 

Like the form asking for matter.

Like the matter asking for energy.

Like the energy asking for its source.

Because the source of my energy is you in the shape of a lotus garland on the meditating Maheshwara, the form of my love is in rhythm with his damru, which is in tune with your favorite song… 

Its pattern repeats with aumkara’s eternal music that’s always played in the heart, which seeks and knows only love, which is life with breath, blending with the air around us, carrying our love-making fragrance in the breeze that sustains the light on the kidavillaku’s wick, even when I am asleep with my thoughts about you as Chennai’s city-lights drown the otherworldly moonlight eternally granted by the sun while awaiting sunrise!

Tuesday, August 06, 2019

Indebted for life, gratefully

Last Sunday night was unlike any night. I weathered a storm, which was unexpected. A dark, dark night.

I showed courage and true grit that I didn't know I possessed inside me. It was an awakening and a test of sorts. The kind of test that makes sentient humans stand out from instinct-driven animals.

Few of my oldest best friends came to know about the incident and they gave me their best advices and suggestions. Very valid points and very valid concerns. I am grateful to them for wishing me well and being concerned about my safety.

Monday dawned. It was the beginning of an anxious and uncertain day. After a long sleepless night.

Two angels came over to my place. Their calm and  thoughtful presence revealed that behind their young and child-like behavior, there's a mature and loving soul with a golden heart.

They spent the entire day with me. They comforted me and made a simple lunch. In the evening, after  the storm had passed and the emotional skies had cleared up, the man-child treated us to a lovely dinner at Ciclo Cafe.

This emotional mood piece is my only way of showing my humble gratitude to them, my heroes. Jona and Vaishnavi, the world is a much better place because of you.

I am indebted to you both forever for in my darkest hour, you weren't showing me where the light was, you didn't point your finger to the moon,  and you didn't perform an autopsy of my life and its irrational decisions or my eccentricities. You didn't play the devil's advocate. You didn't tell me to come over to your place, if I need to.

You came over to my place and just stayed. You asked me whether I am okay. You held my hands and made me believe that the next generation is not bereft of values and emotions. You worked silently. You spoke gently. Your faces revealed your tender love and care.

Jona and Vaish, I promise you I'll be there for you.
I'll be present. In that present moment.

And my advice, my words, my concerns will always take a back seat when all you need is my presence.