Saturday, July 25, 2015

Masaan

Masaan is less of a movie and more of a metaphor. The Ganga must move on between floating dead bodies and burning ones. Just like life must move on between death on all sides. 

Death is the invisible, omnipotent character in this movie. Sometimes spoken about, mostly unspoken but recognized. Both protagonists lose a loved one: one lost her mother when she was just six years old and blames her father's negligence for her death. The other loses his beloved just as life and love was blossoming! Death, like life, has no rhyme or reason, and can come to anyone anytime.

Two parallel tracks show us the inner struggle of apparently modern India just like the stagnated waters of the Ganga in certain pockets during its continuous flow. It has become dirty and a sad reminiscent of its glorious past. This river, which is more than a river, is equated to the glorious Bharat of the past now trying to come to terms with confused modern India.

Facebook does not ask for your caste. But friends on both ends are aware of its implications. The male protagonist, who belongs to the Dom caste (burning human dead bodies has been their ancestral occupation; this is a most revered occupation as per me because they would have seen death from close quarters and the ones who do not lose themselves to drinking, am sure will become poets and philosophers) falls in his first love with an upper caste Gupta girl! Their old-school romance and courtship on screen reminded me of my first and second loves in school! Unrequited though they were, I must add!

The two parallel tracks do merge in the end and life goes on. There are two lines of poetry from the legendary Hindustani poet Dushyant Kumar that singe the heart... ""Tu kisi rail si guzarti hai, main kisi pul saa thartharaataa hun." Loosely translated to "You cross over like a train, I vibrate like some bridge..." Well, I have destroyed its essence in translation. 

Poetry in movies elevates the movie to an altogether different heights. Though not many films have done this as much as Pyaasa, Udaan and Masaan come very close in Hindi cinema.


There is a background shot of a brightly lit train in the night crossing a bridge on the Ganga... That shot alone makes this movie a masterpiece. That one, and the one where two red balloons float up towards the sky... These scenes make your heart beat a bit faster! You feel the excitement that only your first love can bring.

Every character in the movie is struggling and coming to terms with death in some way or the other: the child Jhonta has an unenviable occupation that may brush him closer to death, the father, Sanjay Mishra, is coming to terms with his wife's early death (understated that he never remarried), the daughter coming to terms with her mother's death, the lover coming to terms with his first love's sudden death... Earlier, he was always face to face with death but never internalized it... Later, the same two lines of poetry pours out of him as rambling train while his body vibrates as the bridge... 

This movie is a must watch; an ode to life, death, and love. To first love and then the ones to follow. As I said earlier, life must go on.

Friday, July 24, 2015

Pavithram, purity in love as a ritual

After a long, long time, I saw Pavithram again today. Just like the pavithram modiram (finger ring made of kusa grass worn during rituals in Kerala) is pure/purifying in nature, so is chetacha's love for his sister/daughter.

An ahead-of-time concept, wherein an old couple (played beautifully by Thilakan and Srividya) give birth to a daughter when they already have an elder son (Sreenivasan), a doctor, who is married, and a younger son (Mohanlal) who is of marriageable age. Sreenivasan has been married for sometime now and does not have kids yet. And his wife does not get along well with his family; being henpecked, he also lets things be.

Now, the mother dies during child birth and the father leaves the family out of frustration and guilt. This leaves only Mohanlal to look after his infant sister! He sacrifices his love and his career to look after her. In a way, he becomes almost obsessed with her. 

There are brilliant scenes in the movie where Chetacha (loosely translated to bro-father, which is what she calls him)... plays a dual role of being both a father and an elder brother to his sister! In some scenes, he reacts as a father first and then as a brother... And then, there are some more... 

His over-protective love and concern for his sister becomes his all-consuming love... Ever since she was born, she was the center of his existence... But he forgot that with time, even love should change its form and appearance. That love needs to transform into freedom. She moves to the city for studies and that brings new possibilities and life choices in her life. Which he does not approve of as a bro-father... To add to that, he gets angry very quickly due to lot of factors... His sacrifices, his old age, his unmarried life...

The movie shows us a kind of love, which is becoming rarer nowadays. Most people don't want to be loved like this anymore. This is an old-school movie for old-school romantics like me. And it belongs to that elite club of classic Malayalam movies made in the late 80s and throughout the 90s.

After watching Pavithram, I long for a daughter who would call me chetacha! :-)

Monday, July 20, 2015

Peace. Bliss.

Nothing prepares you for this event. No amount of movie-watching, imagination, analyzing, nothing. No amount of mental preparation and aspiration makes you ready for this meeting, which took ten years in the making. All those years of subconsciously waiting to bump into her at Thiruvannamalai or Chennai... Nothing matters. Nothing mattered.  

Maybe, the two weeks of being in touch briefly over WhatsApp and mobile reduced the self-created hype... I met her over a casual lunch after coffee.

I am free at last. From a ten-year-old obsession. Oh yeah, that's what it was. That is what I made it. In my own mind. I can finally say that I was in love with her. With emphasis on the past tense.

It's finally over; the deepest chapter is over. The book has been closed; the bridge has been burned. By my very two hands. 

My yearning, my churning, my wishful thinking, my imagination, my dream world that I had painstakingly created by myself and for myself. All vanished and crashed. It was a beautiful destruction; I wanted to destroy it in reality. I wanted reality to destroy this of all my grand illusions: my painter girl. Which is why I met her when the opportunity arose, even after I had decided to not be in touch with her after that brief communication period on WhatsApp.

Now, I am on my own. I am seeking; and not looking back again.

Monday, July 13, 2015

Four days in Pune

Pune. I was in Pune for four days... I keep going to Pune because... I really do not know why. It's like Pune will always be my mistress while Bombay will always be my first love.

Met few of my best friends in Pune this time: 
  • Rohan
  • Samruddhi, Appy, and Deepa (enjoyed a lot even though we did miss Shailesh and Bobby)
  • Last but not the least, Sachin Chipkar
Rohan and I spent a lot of time talking about the days gone by. How his life has changed post marriage and I feel, it is for the better. We drank and laughed and watched old Hindi songs on Masti channel and Sony Mix... just like old times. We had the famous misal pav from Katakeer. In the evening, we also had Bombay sandwiches and vada pav.
Kalyani Restaurant stills serves the best Tomato Onion Uttapam in Pune! :-)
Moving on to Baner... Well, Baner is almost like Vasai to me. Brimming with memories. I am sure that after Vasai, Baner must be the place most mentioned in my blog since 2005.
Sam and Deepa ensured that I had Baingan ka barta in typical Jalgaon style. Super spicy. In between round of beers, we managed to talk about our days as neighbors together. Deepa still calls me bhaiya (very few do and actually mean it too). Appy (Shailesh's and Sam's daughter) reminds me of Kuchu a lot! 
I had so much wanted to make this trip and thank God, it was perfect. I munched on Balewadi phata's lovely vada pavs and talked with the uncle who runs the shop. He remembered me at my first greeting itself; he kept telling me to come back to Pune... :-)
I am glad I met him. He hasn't changed an inch... Same big, beaming smile. Same love. Same humility and love coming from his very root of existence. Sachin Chipkar. My brother, I am so happy for you now. Your loving wife, Anu, and son, Agastya, just made me feel like a family member within few minutes...
From sharing sob stories at Goregaon railway station to now sharing happy stories... You've definitely made it in life, yaar. The moment of the entire trip was when you told me that you have everything you need... That this is all you ever wanted... That made me spectacularly happy and joyous... because I know how we used to sit together and hear each other groan! I am so glad to see you move up the corporate ladder completely on your merit. You are a true self-made man. I am proud of you. In every way.
I was speechless there for a long time because I was completely overcome with happiness and quiet sense of peace that you feel when you meet a best friend, an elder brother after about ten long and eventful years.
I rest my case; I am going to revisit my mistress as many times as possible. Zindagi aa raha hoon main...