Goodbye, 2005

Another year went past. But a very defining and colorful year it was.

I found my painter girl, whom I had always searched for. More importantly, she loved me back.

It was a difficult year in terms of choices that I had to make. I quit Brainvisa, the best organisation I ever worked in. I had a calling to quit it is the best explanation possible.

It was a difficult year because I worked six months for the worst organisation ever, Sify.

It was a difficult year in terms of people I had to leave. I never looked back...

It was a year of guilt for many a night I felt guilty... and sad. Why do some have to suffer for others?

The year redefined my vision about my religion. Vedic chants and mantras made a deep impact. I made somebody my guru for the first time in life. I met Ananta Krishnan at Thiruvannamalai, and he has given me great insights and moments of truth ever since.

I think, secretly, he knows everything I know about my self and my life. And even my secrets!

More important than my guru and my gods is my goddess. My goddess has been misunderstood and abused ever since she took birth on earth. None realised that she was a god-child.

She shall be guarded well, henceforth. I will be her warrior of light.

I came to Dubai mid-2005 (though I think 2006 will see me gone soon). I regret coming here, but I now look at this as a great lesson in life. It made me value people who I missed.

All said and done, I had a hand in helping somebody's life becoming meaningful. More sublime and more purposeful. That somebody is me. That somebody is her.

I see my dreams and visions possible now. My goddess gives me the strength and courage to make things possible.

2005 will be remembered as the Year of the Koochie. And so will all years henceforth be remembered as.